Who Am I?

I am proud

Of stupid things under the sun

Of how my nails look or how many shoes I have or just the fact that I have grown up

Yes, of course I have my lows when I don’t know if I’m worth anything

But, I am proud

I am emo

No, I don’t have black nails or hair that cover up three quarters of my face

But little things move me

Stupid, little things

Doesn’t mean anyone can fool me by putting up an act

But, I am emo

I am pretty

There are days when I look at myself and smile at what I see

Doesn’t mean I don’t have bad days

There are so many things I wish I could change about me

But, I am pretty

I am strong

Nope, not physically

But I have the strength to face whatever shit life offers

Of course I have my share of helpless days when I pray the world ends right there

But, I am strong

I am confident

I can face a crowd with a smile on my face, look them dead in the eye and say what I have to say

Stages draw me towards them

I feel vibrant under those yellow lights facing numerous strangers

Still, I am absolutely jittery right before I step onto a stage

I freak out

But, I am confident

I am lonely

There are times when I am surrounded by people but don’t even know if any one of them knows me

I don’t think anyone can ever know me, or anyone, for that matter

But I do have a lot of friends

And I have so many people who love me and I love them

But, I am lonely

I am alive

The music that is playing in the background right at this moment

The breeze that is trying so hard to dry my wet hair

The baby crying across the street

All these things make me feel alive

Of course I have those moments when everything seems surreal

When I don’t know if I exist

But, I am alive

I am all these things

And a little more

But I’m still not absolutely sure

Who am I?

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This post has been written for picture it & write by ermilia

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27 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. joetwo
    Sep 19, 2012 @ 21:04:37

    Them’s fighting words!

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  2. Ermilia
    Sep 20, 2012 @ 05:36:53

    Wow! Very powerful. I love the finishing line of “Who am I?” I loved the structure of the poem too, e.g. ‘But, I am confident/I am lonely’ it really gave the poem it’s own heartbeat. Thanks for contributing this week with such a fantastic poem!

    – Ermisenda

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  3. carolynpageabc
    Sep 20, 2012 @ 06:13:56

    Powerful stuff, my friend…! 🙂
    What do you do on stage…?

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    • Shalvika P
      Sep 26, 2012 @ 14:03:00

      Thanks Carolyn! 🙂
      I’ve been a part of a couple of theatre productions, I am also a trained Indian classical dancer 🙂

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      • carolynpageabc
        Sep 26, 2012 @ 15:58:39

        That’s jogging some past memory regarding the Indian dancing… I believe you’ve mentioned that to me…
        That is wonderful Shalvika; I love the classical Indian dance; it is so cultured and precise… 🙂

        Reply

  4. Nikunj
    Sep 20, 2012 @ 18:13:46

    I am the karmic thread
    that binds me to my deeds…
    I am a bundle of hopes
    I am a person with needs….

    I am the dream and
    the awaited fruition
    I am the joy
    Passion and
    Commotion …

    I am the mirror
    and the dark layer beneath it ..
    I am the picture
    That the master painted …

    Reply

  5. Anne Schilde
    Sep 21, 2012 @ 00:10:04

    Another deep reflection. I like how the breeze and the crying baby brought the rest of the world into the reflection with you.

    Reply

  6. Lorna's Voice
    Sep 21, 2012 @ 03:01:44

    Quite interesting. You know what? I found out that no matter how I define myself, the central definition is: I am always changing… 🙂

    Reply

  7. Soma Mukherjee
    Sep 22, 2012 @ 12:00:01

    wow beautiful

    Reply

  8. Sheikh. Amna Rafiq
    Sep 23, 2012 @ 14:24:31

    Hey there! 🙂
    I’ve nominated you for an award hope you’ll like it… 😀
    http://thevoiceofateenager.wordpress.http://

    Reply

  9. Shrirang
    Sep 26, 2012 @ 11:39:56

    Really amazing !!!!

    Reply

  10. Nanda
    Oct 02, 2012 @ 13:09:49

    I just loved it!
    Nice to see fellow poets joining the challenge!
    And it gives me an inspiration… thanks!
    x

    Reply

  11. jjalal michael sabbagh
    Oct 07, 2012 @ 03:20:18

    Outstanding post.Wishing you success.JalalMichael

    Reply

  12. JasmineKyleSings
    Dec 08, 2012 @ 19:48:15

    OH I will never understand why people like being young. this feeling your battling was so difficult for me. Your handling it much better than I did. I am happily now 4 years into my 30’s and I am SO grateful I survived my 20’s. Good luck I truly don’t know how you do it!

    Reply

  13. zygerina
    Feb 21, 2013 @ 15:31:54

    WOW! I really loved this poem its was powerful…huh…..it was sooo me …I felt related I loved it!

    Reply

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