Little Mistakes

Alicia knew she wasn’t the best of people around. Everyone is allowed to be stupid once in a while, right? At least they are supposed to be when they are fifteen. And so was she. Stupid and careless and a little off the track. But at that point of time, she never really thought of the consequencesd. Of how they would affect her. Of how they would alter her life forever. Of how she would never go back to being a kid again. Ever.

It was a school party, she remembered. And she was smothered by teenage love. She had been waiting for it to happen and just when she was starting to lose hope, Cupid’s arrow had sliced her heart. She knew they were made for each other. They were meant to be together. What she did not know was that their drunken fervor and blind passion would leave her pregnant and shattered.

His parents sent him away for high school immediately and nothing ever was mentioned about being “made for each other”. She was left alone, fifteen and pregnant. All she could do about her kid was give her away for adoption. That was her best option out. They found a nice little family for her, she was told. She did not even have the heart to look at her daughter before they took her away.

All of this flashed through her mind on that September morning, when she was taking a shower. She had thought taking a bath would help calm her nerves. If anything, it had managed to make her even more jittery. She was going to meet her daughter today, seventeen years after giving her away to the nice little family. They called her Megan. She would never have liked that name for her daughter. But then she was not her daughter anymore, Alicia reminded herself.

She took her time getting dressed. She had regretted giving Megan away 5 minutes after they took her. She had thought having a baby would never let her make a life for herself. Alicia knew she had been wrong. Not having her baby had stopped her from making a life for herself.

She was scared. Scared that Megan wouldn’t like her. Scared that Megan would be so different, she wouldn’t have anything to say to her. But she had to take her chance. She had waited seventeen years for this and finally she had the courage to face her daughter. As she took her car keys she knew everyone made little mistakes. She’d just made her share of them. But today, she was going to try to amend one of those little mistakes. She was finally going to see her daughter.

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This post has been written for picture it & write by ermilia

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17 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Elyse
    Aug 05, 2012 @ 22:22:43

    This post touched my heart so much. I’m an adoptive mom, and I so often think of the hole in my son’s birth mother’s heart.

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  2. Madhu
    Aug 05, 2012 @ 23:22:52

    Lovely story Shalvika. Beautifully crafted!

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  3. joetwo
    Aug 06, 2012 @ 01:29:35

    Nice build up! 🙂

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  4. carolynpageabc
    Aug 06, 2012 @ 03:12:46

    Awwww… very sweet Shalvika.. I haven’t posted mine yet however; I know what I want to say so I was able to come and read yours. (I generally don’t read others ’til mine is done so as not to be influenced… However; yours is so different I’m sure that no-one else will have such a road traveled… Lovely… 🙂

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    • Shalvika P
      Aug 06, 2012 @ 10:08:47

      Oh, thank you Carolyn! I’m sure yours is gonna be wonderful as always 🙂
      I usually do it the other way round. I go through other people’s post so I don’t end up doing a similar story 🙂
      Waiting to read yours!

      Reply

  5. Anne Schilde
    Aug 06, 2012 @ 03:52:54

    What a moment of apprehension. I like the way you say giving up Megan stopped Alicia from making her life. Obviously, adoption isn’t wrong in itself, but it can be an agonizing mistake for some. Good job!

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    • Shalvika P
      Aug 06, 2012 @ 10:13:00

      Thank you Anne! I feel adoption is one of the kindest things you could do. But I’m sure it must be damn difficult for the people who give their kids away.
      I’m glad you like it 🙂

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  6. Ermilia
    Aug 06, 2012 @ 15:34:47

    Fantastic! I loved the growing tension and that she was going to finally make up for one of her ‘little mistakes’. A touchy subject that you approached perfectly. Thanks for contributing this week to Picture it & write, Shalvika!

    – Ermisenda

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  7. Lorna's Voice
    Aug 07, 2012 @ 00:10:50

    Beautiful story!

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  8. yogesh chauhan
    Aug 09, 2012 @ 00:30:17

    I could really sense the feeling of the mother… you’ve superbly taken us through the emotional part of her … very well written shalvika !

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  9. Marian Green
    Aug 11, 2012 @ 07:55:23

    Wow… What a BEAUTIFUL way to approach this prompt. Gave me happy chills.

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