Back to School

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As I walk today through this empty corridor of what once used to be my school, I am shocked. Shocked at the change. I mean, everything look the same. The lockers, the corridor, the ever-so-depressing lights, the paraphernalia of childhood. It looks exactly the same. But everything seems so changed.

I am changed. I am no longer the gangly kid with braces and plastic frame glasses. I am no longer the last person to be chosen on any game team. I am no longer the heartbroken kid who doesn’t have the guts to go and tell that boy that I like him. I am no longer the kid who comes up with stories to impress her friends about how cool her father is. Yes, I have changed.

I am grown-up and successful and decent looking. I can draw people’s attention for all he right things if I want to. I can go ahead and buy that pretty dress I loved without thinking twice. I can make good-looking men buy me drinks at a bar whenever I want to. And all this is all that the gangly kid ever wanted.

So why does walking through this corridor make me ache today? Because the world is not the same. Because I am not the same. Because I have realized that the world, as I saw through those plastic frame glasses, is a myth. The “Ideal Life” doesn’t exist. I have lost my innocence. I have lost the ability to give without expecting anything in return. I have lost my childhood. And today, I would give away anything to be back to what I was. To go back to school.

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This post has been written for picture it & write  by ermilia

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8 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. El Guapo
    Apr 20, 2013 @ 21:15:07

    The ideal life still exists.The parameters have changed.
    And even with all the responsibilities, it’s nice being an adult just to be able to buy the toys (or the dresses) you want.

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  2. T E Stazyk
    Apr 21, 2013 @ 06:47:19

    I guess the challenge is to live your life so that you don’t feel the same way when you are 80.

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  3. Ermilia
    Apr 21, 2013 @ 07:21:00

    We change so much over the course of our lives. But hopefully, we should be happy and proud of every transformation. When you’re 50 you will think back to your 20s and 30s…it’s only natural that during your 20s and 30s you might look back at your teen years. Times change but we have to focus on the present. If not, we’ll spend our whole lives in the past. Thanks for posting this thought-provoking story to Picture it & write! :)

    – Ermisenda

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  4. Sats
    Apr 26, 2013 @ 18:20:13

    To be able to give without expecting anything in return – THANK GOD, I haven’t lost that!

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  5. Anne Schilde
    May 02, 2013 @ 13:17:28

    Wait ’til you see a 10 year reunion!

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